About

I used to have a dream.

I was walking along, then broke into a trot. The trot turned into a run. The run got faster and faster, my strides getting longer and longer, it felt easier and easier, until eventually each stride was almost like flying, surfing the air just above the ground, kicking off again every few seconds.

As I surged along, I unzipped myself, peeled off the great thick coat of blubber which had settled, uninvited, around my true self. I wriggled out of it, emerging pink and naked, dressed new skin, leaving the old one behind on the ground as I flew on. Now I was the person I had always been inside.

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I was fat for thirty years or more, and I wasn’t happy. I didn’t think it could ever change. It was fundamental to my entire adult life, every interaction I had and everything I thought about myself and how I saw myself through the eyes of others.

But it changed. So suddenly it feels like it was overnight. Nothing sinister happened, I just found something that worked for me.

In real life I don’t want to be the ex-fattie, and I don’t talk about it, which is why this blog is anonymous. But I think about it every day and I think some of what I have to say might be interesting and useful to others.

To give a little context, I am a white, British man, in my early fifties, living in London. I come from an unremarkable, privileged, middle class background.

I think at my heaviest I might have been as much as 160kg or more. Now I’m 90kg on a good day (that’s 25 BMI – I’m quite tall) and might be chasing 85kg forever.

This blog is just a place to tell my story, in small chunks. I’m not trying to preach or prosletyse, or tell anyone what they should do or how they should do it.

It’s just that I never, ever, thought I could transform myself like this. I am so happy I did. Life changed in unimagined ways.

As it turned out, it was easier than I imagined.

So just in case you’re unhappy about being fat, and want to hear my tale, this site is for you.